To move forward, I'll have to look back to our past...

I know I have to get myself out of this funk, but it feels impossible. My childhood best friend is dead and nothing in life is working out as I'd planned.

Then Lottie leaves me a 'jar of joy' in her will - filled with instructions to visit places where we had our happiest memories. But with every happy memory, I also remember the things that tore us apart.

Because Lottie was keeping secrets. And Jay - the man we both loved - keeps turning up at the same places. Even as I feel pieces of myself begin to heal, some wounds run too deep.

It's time to make a change in my life, but can Lottie's jar of joy really give me the strength I need?

A heartbreaking yet hopeful novel for fans of PS I Love You, The Memory of Us and The Last Letter from Your Lover.