Sometimes I call it an "ordeal" in a bloody arena, you are to keep yourself intact and intrepid as long as you could, "it is better to be safe than sorry", it is to be yourself at all costs, once you lose your intimate friends, as you considered them, you should redeem all your mutual memories summoning them one by one and set them in the scale of reality and morality, if one floats distant or flutters high, it is better to wreathe him or her with your "permanent valediction". You are more likely destined to hoister your colour alone than being a tail or a wag or a factotum. You my brothers, brethren, students, and colleagues never take loose of yourself, be, as long as you breathe, yourself and plunge into life, then you are to probe into your vagrant abyss.